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[14 Jun 2004|02:06am]
My new screenname is _smokeanddenim.

And for everyone's viewing pleasure, I'm leaving the obnoxious Jordan fucking Cooper icon up, which I've decided I'm not referring to myself as anymore. Michael is a little less offensive. I might still put my book out as Jordan f. Cooper, though. Hm. . . Stream of consciousness. Anyway, that's the new name. Add me and stuff.
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[13 Jun 2004|12:55am]
I suppose this is my Livejournalistic farewell. I might make another journal, but nothing's the same as when I created this journal. Well, maybe somethings, but there are others fairly important factors that aren't. I guess it's suppose to be symbolic of me in some shape or form. Ah well. I don't really post in it, anyway. Au revoir. If I make a new one, it'll probably be all Friend's Only, and a good bit more personal. Post if you'd like to be added to the (possible) new one.

Also, listen to the following songs that I've chosen from my Kazaa list:

"Changes" by Tupac
"Paint it Black" by the Rolling Stones
"Another Innocent Girl" by Alkaline Trio
"God Save the Queen" by American Nightmare
"Paranoid" by Black Sabbath
"First in Flight" by Blackalicious
"Rookie" by Boy Sets Fire
*interjection*How the Hell did Boyz II Men end up on my computer?*/interjection*
"Hey Ma" by Cam'ron
"Joy Opposites" by Cave-In
"Barrel Vault" by Dead Low Tide
"Silly Girl" by the Descendents
"She's My Rushmore" by Every Time I Die
"This Year's Most Open Heartbreak" by Funeral for a Friend
"You and Me" by Give Up the Ghost
"Trial of the Century" by Good Riddance
"Suicide Invoice" by the Hot Snakes
"1969" by Iggy and the Stooges
"Justify my Thug" by Jay-Z
"The Man Comes Around" by Johnny Cash
"Plan B" by Just Blaze
"School Spirit" by Kanye West
"Deceptacon" by Le Tigre
"Callin' Out" by Lyrics Born
"Round Here" by Memphis Bleek
"She (original with keyboards" by the Misfits
"Bear Away" by the Murder City Devils
"I Drink the Wine" by the Murder City Devils
"It's in my Heart" by the Murder City Devils
"Got Sum Teeth" by Obie Trice
"Baby I Got Your Money" by Dirt McGirt (AKA Ol' Dirty Bastard)
"Ms. Jackson" by Outkast
"This is our Emergency" by Pretty Girls Make Graves
"Alison's Song" by Remembering Never"
"Wild Horses" by the Rolling Stones
"You Vandal" by Saves the Day
"Raining Blood" by Slayer
"Guess What" by Syleena Johnson
"Guerilla Monsoon" by Talib Kweli
"Heart Attack American" by the Bronx
"Drain the Blood" by the Distillers
"D.O.A" by the Haunted
"Alice" by Tom Waits
"Hit 'Em Up" by Tupac
"Can't Stop, Won't Stop" by Young Gunz
"Slo Jamz" by Twista
( . . .and cut 6 hopes from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[13 Jun 2004|12:37am]
[ mood | thankful ]

The asperity of my swollen ego
Hinges on the succes that I fake.
You can never imagine where we go
For the facts in fiction; for fiction's sake.
And I'll tell you again when this ends:
I'll never go, and it's seems this is sempiternal
And past pretense on mood lends
To my coming distinction of being nocturnal.
Tomorrow comes one way or another,
I'll know by then of absolutely nothing.
Sometimes I wonder why I do bother,
But I know now why tears shed in spring.
I've thrust this to the left side of my chest,
Taking heed of high-wire escapades in vain.
Doubtful is knowing what turns best,
So from ear to pillow, thoughts might drain.

( Grab the razor. . . )

Like I post with anything but surveys. [11 Jun 2004|12:50am]
This incipient determination started with a key,
But the clutch stuck with a down-shift decree.
And I left pusillanimous after nineteen years,
After quickly realizing all my irrational fears.
Apathy swarms like summer locust reign,
So I scrub at my past like a freshly made stain
As I walk to the gallows stride by stride,
I keep my Jekyll and shed my Hyde.
Though toilsome is my heart's constriction,
Stronger still is my continual affliction
With action worthy of trial and damnation.
My actions are the only way I'll meet salvation.
( Grab the razor. . . )

[10 Jun 2004|08:48pm]
[ mood | Unbearingly normal. ]

New layout.

. . .Someone smack me.

( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[08 Jun 2004|01:23am]
I will survive like Kanye.Collapse )
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[29 May 2004|01:03am]
What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight
Name:
Gender:
Your looks:Short silver hair.
Your best friend:Friend? You're the Dark Loner.
Your powers:No powers, just a magic sword.
Your beloved:A valiant hero.
Your occupation:Wanderer.
Your ending:Tragic...everyone dies.
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!



Sounds familiar. . .
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[26 May 2004|02:02am]
Info Black
Your Heart is Black


What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla
( Grab the razor. . . )

[24 May 2004|10:23pm]
NOTE: z
No smoking around deathcardblues. Thankyou for your co-operation.

Username:

From Go-Quiz.com
( . . .and cut 2 hopes from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[21 May 2004|10:09pm]
showmelove

1.)Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.) (Eliminate the asterisks)
3.)See what color you are

deathcardblues

And for some reason I was thinking it'd be blue.
( Grab the razor. . . )

[21 May 2004|12:44am]
Magic.Collapse )
( . . .and cut 2 hopes from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[13 May 2004|11:21pm]
New layout.

"Just the take the time, we've got ordinary lives."
( Grab the razor. . . )

[10 May 2004|12:01am]
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Purse - I haven't a purse. My wallet is an old black Emerica wallet with a big hole in the front. Does that count?
[ x ] Hairbrush - I lack the amount of hair necessary to comb it.
[ x ] Toothbrush - It's a Crest Powerbrush with Spider-man on it. Naturally, it's blue and red.
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - Not applicable. Some days, a spike in my lip. Sometimes, nothing.
[ x ] Pillow - Squishy pillow that is literally older than me.
[ x ] Blanket - An old sleeping bag I used as a kid. It's really heavy and limits my movement during sleep.
[ x ] Sunglasses - I have some ones that have a VW logo in the lower corner of the right lense.
[ x ] Underwear - Random boxers. Typically plaid.
[ x ] Favorite item of clothing- I dunno, various ones.
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Nautica.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Kanye West, College Dropout.
[ x ] Tattoos - Quite a few and I don't really feel like listing them right now.
[ x ] Piercings - Lip, off and on.
[ x ] What you are wearing right now - Khakis and a button-up irridescent dress shirt. Unbutton, sleeves rolled up.

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - Livewire Mountain Dew.
[ x ] In my head - Pains.
[ x ] Wishing - I don't do that.
[ x ] After this - I'll probably drive around.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who would it be? - The list lengthens.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - A couple.
[ x ] Is next to you - My glasses.
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - None are coming to mind right now, but quite a few.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - Tough one.
[ x ] The last thing you ate - Some candy when I took my mom to a movie for the special day.
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - Aliens, that's an obvious one.
[ x ] Do you like candles - I like fire, does that count?
[ x ] Do you like incense - Not particularly.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - Sort of, as gruesome as that is.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - Pending.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - No.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Lust at first sight, love's afterwards.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be? - Wallaby.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - Ha, I've gone well over 36 hours, I couldn't give you the time I actually crashed.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - I've never attempted to.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - The two Euro coin.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - Almond Joy, Reese's Fastbreak, those Sunkist Gems.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - Me.

I'm too lazy to LJ-cut this. Deal with it.
( . . .and cut 4 hopes from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[07 May 2004|11:12pm]
WARNING: DangerousCollapse )

Notice the fifty-plus percent difference in homicidal insanity level.
( Grab the razor. . . )

(to someone, we're nothing. to nothing, we're everything.) [07 May 2004|10:17pm]
My vindication for family and friends
Who'll perceive my absence as unwritten ends
Should only me taken as unspoken blessing
Because it's my past who I've been wrestling.
As my dreams fall short and flat,
I only want you to know this and that
My sorrowful attempts at coming clean
Of my failures and your misconceptions mean
Everything to anyone willing to accept
The worrisome love and humble concept
That everything I was has now changed.
The bitter-past neglects have now ranged
From sex to drugs to abuse to hate,
And I'm aware that this may be too late,
But please remember me for the good,
We all know that's the way we should.
Take heed and lesson from my life,
Avoid the useless drama and strife
To harness the strength from within.
And now I speak as I experience chagrin,
Construe these words as I surrender,
Allow yourself to once again feel splendor.
( Grab the razor. . . )

[04 May 2004|01:09pm]
http://memegen.deskslave.org/viewmeme.pl?un=crash_and_burn&meme=1074645612
( . . .and cut 2 hopes from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[30 Apr 2004|01:17pm]
I'm posting this one strictly for the reason of Dan being played by Sam Jackson.

My LiveJournal Sitcom
lover_murderer at a bodega (NBC, 7:00): lover_murderer (Mena Suvari) trades mailboxs with 5:fiatcremor (Samuel L. Jackson). Upstairs, sadsorryexcuse (Danny Trejo) and forgottenlies (Tara Reid) try out for a volleyball team. Wackiness ensues.
What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)


This thing does need to work on the whole gender thing, though. It's says I'm played by Chloe Sevigny under Deathcardblues.
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[24 Apr 2004|02:48am]
As of about two hours ago, I went into an introspective labyrinth as I frequently do on late night times on the fens with companionship of any sort. Thus, I reflected on all that was mundane and painful. I just wanted to thank you, Stace, for your entry. It really did up my spirits.
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

[21 Apr 2004|01:15am]
[enter super, boring survey world.]Collapse )
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

(finally accepting the new chances born daily) [20 Apr 2004|02:50am]
Things are looking up?

Ad infinitum, sugah.
( . . .and cut 1 hope from my head. Grab the razor. . . )

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